'Not to some people it isn't,' he said. 'Someone over there raised a red flag and asked me to get rid of her. I said not now. We would watch her first.'
'Are you telling me you think Lucy is the virus?' I was incredulous.
'No.' He leaned forward in his chair. 'I think Gault is the virus. And I want Lucy to help us track him.'
I looked at him as if he had just pulled out a gun and shot it into the air. 'No,' I said with feeling.
'Kay, listen to me…'
'Absolutely not. Leave her out of this. She's not a goddam FBI agent.'
'You're overreacting…'
But I would not let him talk. 'She's a college student, for God's sake. She has no business-' My voice caught. 'I know her. She'll try to communicate with him. Don't you see?' I looked fiercely at him. 'You don't know her, Benton!'
'I think I do.'
'I won't let you use her like this.'
'Let me explain.'
'You should shut CAIN down,' I said.
'I can't do that. It might be the only trail Gault leaves.' He paused as I continued to glare at him. 'Lives are at stake. Gault hasn't finished killing.'
I blurted, 'That's exactly why I don't want Lucy even thinking about him!'
Wesley was silent. He looked toward the shut door, then back at me. 'He already knows who she is,' he said.
He looked toward the shut door, then back at me. 'He already knows who she is,' he said.
'He doesn't know much about her.'
'We don't know how much he knows about her. But at the very least he probably knows what she looks like.'
I could not think. 'How?'
'From when your American Express gold card was stolen,' he said. 'Hasn't Lucy told you?'
'Told me what?'
'The things she kept in her desk.' When he could see I did not know what he was talking about, he abruptly caught himself. I sensed he had brushed against details he would not tell me.
'What things?' I asked.
'Well,' he went on, 'she kept a letter in her desk at ERF — a letter from you. The one that had the credit card in it.'
'I know about that.'
'Right. Also inside this letter was a photograph of you and Lucy together in Miami. You were sitting in your mother's backyard, apparently.'
I shut my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath as he grimly went on.
'Gault also knows Lucy is your point of greatest vulnerability. I don't want him fixing on her, either. But what I'm trying to suggest to you is that he probably already has. He's broken into a world where she is god. He has taken over CAIN.'
'So that's why you moved her,' I said.
Wesley watched me as he struggled for a way to help. I saw the hell behind his cool reserve and sensed his terrible pain. He, too, had children.
'You moved her on the security floor with me,' I said. 'You're afraid Gault might come after her.'
Still he did not speak.
'I want her to return to UVA, to Charlottesville. I want her back there tomorrow,' I said with a ferocity I did not feel. What I really wanted was for Lucy not to know my world at all, and that would never be possible.
'She can't,' he simply said. 'And she can't stay with you in Richmond. To tell you the truth, she really can't stay anywhere right now but here. This is where she's safest.'
'She can't stay here the rest of her life,' I said.
'Until he's caught…'
'He may never be caught, Benton!'
He looked wearily at me. 'Then both of you may end up in our Protected Witness Program.'
'I will not give up my identity. My life. How is that any better than being dead?'
'It is better,' he said quietly, and I knew he was seeing bodies kicked, decapitated, and with bullet wounds.
I got up. 'What do I do about my stolen credit card?' I numbly asked.
'Cancel it,' he said. 'I was hoping we could use money from seized assets, from drug raids. But we can't.' He paused as I shook my head in disbelief. 'It's not my choice. You know the budget problems. You have them, too.'
'Lord,' I said. 'I thought you wanted to trail him.'
'Your credit card isn't likely to show us where he is, only where he's been.'
'I can't believe this.'
'Blame it on the politicians.'
'I don't want to hear about budget problems or politicians,' I exclaimed.
'Kay, the Bureau can barely afford ammunition for the ranges these days. And you know our staffing problems. I'm personally working a hundred and thirty-nine cases even as we speak. Last month two of my best people retired.
'Now my unit's down to nine. Nine. That's a total of ten of us trying to cover the entire United States plus any cases submitted from abroad. Hell, the only reason we have you is we don't pay you.'